I have not read this book…only a review, and this quote alone (used in part in this past weekend’s message at GCC) makes it worth buying.

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. but in that casket – safe, dark, motionless, airless – it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. The alternative to tragedy, or at least to the risk of tragedy is damnation. The only place outside Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers and perturbations of love is Hell.” – C.S. Lewis

Only in my dreams

I dreamt of my friend Tim last night; at least this time when I awoke I remembered he is dead.

The anniversary of his death is coming up. Don’t know why I refer to it as an “anniversary” – it is not as if it is something I am celebrating. He has been on my mind lately more than normal. Probably because the weather turned autumn-esque for a little while and my internal clock knew what I was experiencing last autumn.

My own personal haunting…only in my dreams.

I feel like God truly has answered my prayers when it comes to that. I always have dreams about my friends that I don’t get to see on a regular basis, it is what reminds me to stay in touch with them. When Tim died I PRAYED HARD to not have dreams about him. Then, because I missed him I remember sort of telling God that I take it back. That was when I had the last dream, where when I woke up I had forgotten he was dead and reached for the phone to call him.

God has been good. I have not dreamed of Tim since then, until now. I am actually kind of grateful for it. You see, you would think that having shared a nine year friendship with someone that over the course of time you would have some EVIDENCE of it.

Nope, not me.

I live in the moment.
I don’t take pictures or video or things like that.
I have nothing but memories….
…………………………..…..sometimes though I wish I had a video
…………………………………………………..…..just to hear him laugh.

So God gave me dreams.
Not quite the same, but hey…He’s trying.

A minor irritation with Internet Explorer

Hey!Internet Explorer!

Yeah YOU! Listen up!

Your new version included 2 things that brought me back from Firefox:

– Tabbed browsing
– RSS feeds updated right in my favorites window (no more need for Feedblitz!)

Well the RSS feeds haven’t updated in over a month. The blogs have, I have checked. I thought maybe it was my computer. Well I have tried 3 different computers and no luck. Whats the issue?

I can get tabbed browsing with Firefox.

(Anyone know how to fix this?)